Thursday, February 4, 2016

Stereotyping myself!

I feel like I'm doing good today. I'm at 490 for the day so far and I'm going to the gym at 5:00 (as soon as I get out of class). It's the first time I've been to the gym in a while. I need it. We won't do much (my gym buddy is lazy but it's okay. She gets me in for free as a guest and I get to work out after she quits to go tan) but that's okay. I don't mind. I'm trying not to expect too much of myself too fast. That's what always fucks me up in the first place.
So, I found an old blog about goth culture and I was reading about all the sub genres of goth and wow. There are a lot. I was curious because gothicness fascinates me, and people always think I'm goth or scene when they meet me. And I decided that whilst I am decidedly alternative, I am not goth, because no matter how much I do or aspire to dress gothic, I don't listen to goth music at all, and goth culture is derived from the music, just like punk, metal, grunge, and emo-which is derived from emocore, you dumbass kids who think saying "rawr" and self-harming makes you emo! Self-harm is not a trend you little shits!
But I digress.
Anyway, so based off of that, I'm either indie, alternative, or hipster. Alternative: yes. Indie: a little. Hipster: Hmm...
So here's the thing. I've been called hipster a lot because I like to steer away from things that are popular. I prefer more obscure-well, anything really. Music, movies, books, style. It's just what I do. Obscure stuff tends to be better because it doesn't survive off of reputation alone. For this reason, I am labeled a hipster, always in a derogatory manner.
So here's my question: When did "hipster" become a bad thing?
Let's analyze that, shall we? "Hipsters" are labeled as such because they steer away from mainstream culture of any kind, and prefer to follow their own course. They are trendsetters. Why is that so bad?
I suppose in some ways, it can be bad. Back in the olden days when I was 15 (all those four years ago lol) I used to rebel against conformity, not because I did what I enjoyed, but because I wanted to be different. I rebelled for the sake of rebellion, rather than to be happy. And that's stupid. Maybe that's why "hipster" is seen as such a negative term. Confused, antisocial teenagers attempting to be different because they refuse to be the same.
Now, if one of you is reading this, take this advice from a recovered anti-conformist: it's not worth it. I found myself refusing to do things I enjoyed and refusing to talk to people who I saw as "popular", because I assumed they must be bad people. And in my narrow-minded self-righteousness, I lost a lot of opportunities to do things I may have made me happy. I graduated high school last year with few friends, all of which are gone now because I realized how hateful they are. And I used to be one of them. I don't miss anyone from high school because I refused to get to know them. And I graduated in a class of 87 kids. Only one lasting friend, and we weren't friends in high school!
My philosophy summed up in one sentence: Life is too short to not sing along to a catchy Taylor Swift song.
Even if you dislike her as much as I do. I love to sing. And when "Shake it Off" comes on, I belt that shit. And I'm infinitely happier because of it.
So now, I aim to do what I want. Sometimes it's mainstream and "conformist", most of the time it's obscure and different. For those reasons, I suppose I'm proud to call myself a "hipster".

2 comments:

  1. I think I'm seriously going to like you <3
    I don't see any option to follow your blog D: I really really want to.

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    1. I like you too! :P I'll look into it, I'm not real good at this stuff yet.

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