Fake it til you make it

I got a waist cincher!It sucks in all of my fat and I love it. I can wear it under my clothes and it's like a constant reminder not to eat and why not to eat. It's super tight, but not for long.

It doesn't do anything for my fat legs, but my sweater covers my thighs, so.
I almost can't bear to post that pic...ugh. Don't judge me, I know I'm fat. I just wanted to show off the waist cincher.
Anyway, now I can pretend to be skinnier than I actually am until I actually am skinny. *shrug*. And since it has three rows of fasteners I'll be able to wear it for a while. So that's good. It's also improving my posture, and I'm hoping it will help me get used to the feeling so when I buy my corsets it won't feel so weird. I'm actually starting to like wearing it.
Speaking of my fat little self, I'm doing terrible today. My mom made breakfast burritos, and I had to eat one (she has this weird thing about breakfast. Like, I have to eat it no matter what). At least I got to assemble my own so I could regulate how much of everything was on it, but still, it came to about 425 calories! God, that's disgusting. Last year I ate less than that A DAY. What the fuck.
Anyway, I'm just going to have a light yogurt for lunch (90) and drink tons of water. If I'm absolutely dying before I get off work, I'll eat my granola bar. But if I can make it, I won't eat anything til dinner. But we're having pasta! Ugh! I'll have to see how little I can get away with eating in front of my obese family. Then some green tea then off to bed to watch more True Blood (I just started it! So good). That should keep me at a decent intake for the day. I'll work out if I get the chance.
Well, that's it for now. Ta ta.