I'm weak + stats

Or at least, I want to be weak. I don't know. I haven't done so great today. It's 4:47pm and I'm already at 610 calories. But I suppose if I go easy on dinner I'll be okay. My goal for the week is to stay under 1000 a day, then on Monday I'll start the healthy skinny girl diet. I think I can do this. The problem is, my brain is sabotaging me. My stomach is not hungry. But my brain desperately wants to use the $1 in my wallet to march over to McDonald's and buy cookies. But I won't. I refuse to give in. I'm half tempted to walk over and buy a coffee, just to get rid of the excess money. But you know what? I won't. I refuse to. I've already eaten more than I intended today. So I'm going to sit here and drink my water and not give in to the dumbass that is my appetite. Because I'm not hungry. Just bored and emotional.

I found that pic years ago when I first decided to lose weight. It's so useful for absolutely anybody trying to lose weight. Especially in this country where everyone is obese. Ugh.
Anyway, I haven't been able to weigh myself, but I measured this morning and here are my stats as well as I can remember.

Height: 5'4''
Weight: 120 lbs* (Just an estimate I was around there last time I weighed)
BMI: 20.6 (assuming I weight 120)
Waist: 26.5 inches
Stomach: 32 inches (I have a bulge :( )
Hips: 36 inches (Upper hips, around hipbones)

I didn't have time to do full measurements, that's all I got. But still, it's something to reference. My current goals are to lose about 10 lbs, a 30 inch stomach, and a 25 inch waist (before waist training. After waist training I want about a 22 inch waist). I'm keeping my goals modest for the moment, then when I reach them I'll set new ones.
Other physical goals:

• toned arms (especially underneath-my flab won't go away!)
• thigh gap (almost there actually! I barely have to cheat at all to get one.)
• toned ass (It's gotten smaller as I lose weight-not acceptable! Must build up the booty!)
• Flat belly (duh)
• slim neck and face (I have a double chin! And I'm so jealous of girls with those perfectly defined jawlines and cheekbones.)
• Grow hair out (I had a pixie for four years and it's growing out very awkwardly. I just want it long and healthy so I can dye it back to black!)
• Improve makeup game :P

I basically want to be perfect. I know that's ridiculous, but it's what I want. And I will get it.