It's now almost 7:30, and I still haven't eaten. I had some tea before I left work, and the box didn't say how many calories were in it (what the fuck? I thought that was a law!), but there's no way it was enough to mess up my day. I mean, it was just tea. Oh, and I had a piece of sugarfree gum (5 kcal), because I was cleaning out my purse and it was the last stick in the box. So I'm doing okay. I just have to make it til bedtime, and make sure I don't eat anything while I'm here at my boyfriend's house (He's doing homework right now, which is why I'm writing this). I used his bathroom scale, and I'm at 122.2. Ugh. But I guess I've got to start somewhere.
This is really hard for me because a part of me wants him to force me to eat, you know? I didn't even actually get hungry til about an hour ago, but now I just want to eat something. But I want control even more. I need to get some control over my life, and that starts with taking control over myself.
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